As we sit in a puddle of salt water, the both of us crying as Irina had to say goodbye to her daughter and granddaughter today they are off to Moscow again and it will be months before we see them again it brings me back to my own longing for my kids and how much I miss them and how much they mean to me. If you busy yourself you don’t allow your mind to wonder how much your heart is torn being so far away from the ones you love. My mind immediately jumped back to the days I had to say goodbye to my kids knowing I would not see them again until I returned. Tommy I had to say goodbye at John and Heather’s wedding reception which was very hard knowing he had limited time to be with with his friends so I would only get to see him again until I drove him to the airport which I always look forward to since it gets to be our private time and I don’t have to share him with anyone. Alex I had to say goodbye to 3 days before leaving since she was off to Florida and a party for Sophie’s grandfather celebrating a birthday with the whole family so we spent the night in Evanston eating at my favorite restaurant watching my beloved Chicago Blackhawks get thrashed so badly I turned on the Chicago Cubs baseball game and anyone who knows me knows that watching baseball is one of the most painful things I have to suffer through so that gives you an indication how awful the hawks we playing. The next morning the girls left bidding our adieu, I was greeted by a parking ticket sitting upon my windshield, it was leaf sweeping day and the car had to be moved by 8:00 am so much for reflection of my night. My farewell to Courtney was as emotional as any I have ever had in my life. She was being so stoic as we took pictures, kissed and said our goodbye in the house. I turned walked out of the house, getting into the car Courtney came running out crying grabbing me and telling me how much she loved me and was going to miss me. That image is burned into my mind and in my heart that will last a lifetime. Irina and I sit upon our couch crying thinking of our loved ones and when we will see and be with them again.
Along with missing my kids it also brings back memories of my wonderful mother whom has joined my dad and most of her friends in heaven….I miss you everyday.
I love and miss you all till we touch and kiss again peace and love DAD.